Tuesday, July 25, 2006

My Personal Dna Report

Sunday, July 23, 2006

bro has finally gone to bed and now i can blog in peace privately.

life seems to be passing me by.
yet again i have found myself wanting.

i simply don't know what i want to achieve and get right now.
everything seems so 50/50 to me.

everybody seems to know what to do all the time.
i like to think that while everyone strolls along in life, i always stumble along.

i always don't have time for everyone.
the juggling act has ended.
i finally feel exhausted.
so tired of everything.

and i always want the best of both worlds.
i want rugby, i want work, i want go out.
somebody commented to me that i would need to faint before i will stop everything.

i find that true.
i am not superman anyway.
i always knew that mum is always upset and worried with my constant activties.
but i always say " nevermind la. sure wake me up ok. important."

good thing shes smart. on the few times when she knew i was close to breaking point, she just lets me sleep that extra hour.
i would wake up grumpy and upset of course, having to rush and being late for my appointment.

but all this, of course, is not the point.
the thing is i always cant decide.
i am always caught in a wedge.

this wedge, which would slowly close up on me.

nonetheless, enough of the emo-ing.
i am just upset with myself i guess.
and that i am really very tired.

i have this feeling that i am neglecting people.

i have this feeling that i am not myself somehow.

its very strange.

still, on a brighter note, i got things to look forward to.

1. National Touch League
2. Contact Rugby Matches
3. Mount Ophir.
4. Shanghai Trip
5. Zoo Project
6. Friends and Pig *hehe

this must be one of my most emo entries ever. haha.
alright time for some sleep. night people!

-and the stumble comes to a crawl...

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

it was never easy.
nothing ever was.

Monday, July 10, 2006

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside I'm standing here
But all I want is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
you made me feel
Like I could sing along.

But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth

Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Because I liked the view

I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Thursday, July 06, 2006

okok i was wrong.

i am not going to be a bad loser and claim henry dived or anything
i guess france played better anyway.

this world cup has been very unlucky for me..

school in a few hours time..
bye ppl!

Monday, July 03, 2006

so brazil and argentina are out,
and now everyone is cheering for italy and france

for some reason, i just dun like people who jump from one bandwagon to another.
always just supporting the winning/on-form sides.
i see msn nicks supporting italy and france just because of their brilliant performances in the quarter finals.

but hardly anyone gives credit to germany and portgual just because they went though on penatlties. oh well.
my gut feeling tells me it would be them and not italy and france in the final.

whether i will fall flat on my face with my prediction we shall see.

i miss the past.

we can go back to the past

but everything will never be the same again

and thats what makes the past beautiful, because it will never be the same and will never be exprienced again.